One of my many lessons of 2012 has been appreciation, how to appreciate what you DO have, even if it is not necessarily what you WANT, things could always be so much worse. Some of you may know that I am an LPN...I have been an LPN for going on 4 years...I graduated in 2007 at 21, my goal was to go back and get my RN before I turned 25. Just to be able to say that I was an RN at 25...I felt like that would be an accomplishment. Well, this October I will be turning 26...and needless to say I am still an LPN.
Alot of my classmates that I graduated with have gone back and obtained their RN license, and one girl whom I became really close with she went RIGHT back as soon as we graduated, so she was an RN at 22 years old. I admit I was a bit envious, and I felt pressured, but still here I am an LPN.
It is not as if I am "wanting" for anything, I live comfortably. The sole purpose of my pursuit to my RN license was just for "show", so others could be proud of me. Never stopping to think "Who says that they are NOT already proud of me?"....perhaps it was just me, not proud of myself, not giving myself credit.
It wasn't until today, in class, as my instructor went throughout the class asking everyone what they did...the class was full of nurse aids, patient care techs, a few truck drivers, some were unemployed...then he got to me and my responce "An LPN"...got many oohs and aahs and questions.
I thought to myself...while I have been so busy peeping in others lives, imagining how "good" they are, I have been neglecting to see my own light, my own life. I ignore all of the good that I have going on and only pay attention to the negative.
I realized; while I am dreaming about having her life, someone else is dreaming to have mine. That makes you think a bit. Not that I am saying to settle...and say well good is good enough, always shoot for the best, but be sure to celebrate the good that you have going on already.
Energy is such a funny thing in the way that it will consume you. No matter HOW good you have it, no matter how easy you may have it, opposed to those who REALLY struggle, if YOU do not embrace the positive in your life, then you will never feel it, you will never emulate it.
You may know someone right now whom you think has it pretty good and may wonder, "What is she mad about?" "Why is she complaining?" and the answer is simply, because she does not recognize the positive, she ignore the positive things in her life, only feeding the negative and so that is what grows, it amplifies. The positive has been pushed down, repressed, taken for granted and no longer even recognizable...Why do we do this to ourselves? Have so much going for us, and ignore that, for what ISN'T going for us.
I have made it a personal quest to ignore the negative. I have started a prayer journal and when writing, I don't even mention the things that are going wrong, I talk about all the things that are going right, and I thank God for them. If something is going wrong, instead of giving it power, I thank God for the strength in getting through it, so that compared to me, that stepping stone is powerless.
If this is you. If you find yourself wanting something sooo bad, and find yourself beating yourself up over it, whether it be love, marriage, kids, career, finances, property...whatever it is I want you to stop. Right down your ultimate goals, in what you want, so that you can never forget. After it's written down, leave it on that paper. You may set small goals that will lead up to accomplishing your overall quest...go back and look at it as a reminder of what you need to do...and TRY. That's all you can do. Don't beat yourself up over set backs, after it is written down, just leave it there and then focus on everything that is right in your life.
Do you have a roof over your head?
Yes? Be thankful.
Don't add in "Yeaaa BUT I stay with my momma....Nope! The question was Did you have a roof over your head? The answer is simply YES, not everyone is even that fortunate, to have a mother to stay with, to have a mother that care.
Mini Challenge: Tomorrow, take a break from the "have nots" and celebrate your haves :-) Write down 1 thing that you are thankful for having despite the things that you have yet to obtain. Whatever you write down, then find some way to celebrate it.
Ex. "I am thankful for my family" As a celebration we will all eat dinner at the table (opposed to in our rooms)
or
"I am thankful just for today, making it another day" As a celebration I will go on a nature walk and enjoy the moment (or do whatever it is that YOU as individual like to do, but may not always have time to do. Tomorrow...MAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF....APPRECIATE YOURSELF for a change:-)
Hope you all enjoyed this post, as this the first of many to come. Feel free to submit suggetstions or topics. I am a sponge soaking it all in. Thanks loves!! ~Deuce~
